Paths

Do you ever look back at your life and wonder, "how did things end up this way"?

I have.

Never in my wildest dreams would I have thought I'd end up in the exact same position I am now. Things have changed that I never thought possible. But here I am.

Some things didn't turn out how I wanted them to. And some things turned out much better.

So many people have come and gone. So many dreams have waxed and waned.

The uncertainty I was feeling not too long ago is gone. My future is at my fingertips. But somehow there's an emptiness to it.

How was the journey here? Who did I hurt? Who did I love? Did I do the right thing?

Hell, I don't know. Can anyone ever be so sure of what life's going to throw at them? I certainly tried to do the right thing the whole time. Can I say for certain that I did?

No.

All those people that you just fell out of touch with for one reason or another but wish you could still talk to. All those important and difficult decisions you made. All those relationships you maintained. All that you worked for.

All the bridges you built. All the bridges you burned.

All that stress that you wish you could have made go away. All the times when you knew you could have been doing something better with your time. All the times you didn't understand why someone acted the way they did. All the times you made the wrong decisions and tried to make things right. All the things you're not proud of. All the hearts you broke you didn't mean to... and all the times your heart was broken.

Did you do the right thing?

I really don't know if I did.

One thing I know for sure:

I tried.